’ve been really sick since last week—the kind of illness that only shows up once a decade, if that. Even the simplest tasks felt like uphill climbs, draining my body and mind, slowing everything down—including momentum.
Alongside the cough, fever, and aches came a heavier weight: the fear of letting people down. Clients. Colleagues. Commitments. That old, familiar inner voice whispering, “You should push through. You can’t afford to disappoint anyone.”
Lying on the couch, I realized this wasn’t just about being unwell—it was about what it means to pause. What it stirs up:
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Am I still dependable?
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Will I seem unprofessional?
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Will people be disappointed?
Then I started reaching out. I let people know I wasn’t well, I rescheduled, I rested. And the response was nothing like that fearful voice predicted.
Instead, people responded with kindness. Understanding. Compassion.
“Take care of yourself.”
“Hope you feel better soon.”
“Thanks for letting me know.”
No judgment. No guilt. Just grace.
It was such a powerful reminder that being human—sick, tired, needing rest—isn’t a flaw. It’s natural. With the right care and some much-needed medications (huge thanks to my fantastic doctor), I’ll find my way back to health.
This experience also highlighted how often we brace ourselves for harsh reactions that may never come, how critical we can be of ourselves—while others are ready to meet us with kindness.
If you need the reminder too: It’s okay to pause. It’s okay to not be at your best. It’s okay to be human.
Sometimes, in the soft space where we let go of pressure, we find connection, care, and a gentler way forward.
P.S. Miss Mabel stays close the whole time—somehow dogs just know when you need a little extra love.
Annika Schaefer
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